I started this blog as a way to get my thoughts out in writing. Whether it be happiness, sadness, anger, laughter…just whatever is on my mind.
It amazes me how much we all change in such a short time. I am a completely different person than I was even just a year ago. I’m even more of a different person than I was 5 years ago. If you’d told me 5 years ago that I would be happily married with a child who was my whole universe, I would’ve died laughing & asked what you were smoking. If you’d have told me 2 years ago that I would be happier than I’d ever been as a domestic goddess in training, I would’ve laughed even harder.
Humans are just incredible in their capacity to change & adapt to whatever situation they are put in. And while so many of us fear & try to avoid change, it is inevitable. I think change is good for us. It makes us grow & learn. It makes us examine our path in life & decide whether we want to stay on the same path we’ve been on.
I spent almost 10 years being such a rebellious little wild child, totally self-absorbed & selfish & stupid (& crazy, & reckless, & irresponsible, & wild, & did I mention crazy?). But I don’t regret one second of it, because whatever I was doing, it was exactly what I wanted to do at that moment. I lived for the moment & didn’t give two seconds of thought to the consequences.
Not to say that there weren’t consequences…there were plenty of them, some harsher & more extreme than others. But I think that having that kind of freedom once in my life was a great thing for me. I “sowed my wild oats,” as one would say & while I loved that part of my life, I wouldn’t go back to it now even if you offered me $1,000,000. It’s out of my system & I have some wild stories to tell, that I’m sure my son won’t believe. (Hell, my hubby hardly believes them!)
But that crazy part of my life has shaped me into the woman I am today & if I changed anything, I wouldn’t be where I am now. No regrets. Life is too short to regret every little mistake you make. If no one ever made mistakes, we would never change. We would never learn.
I know some of the hardest, most important things that I’ve learned have been through my monumental mistakes that I thought would always seem so huge. And they still seem huge, just not quite as huge as they were when they were towering over me & I was beating myself up about them.
No one on this Earth is perfect & no one should try to be. People don’t love us because we are perfect; they love us because of our flaws & quirks & differences. They love us imperfections. What a boring world it would be if we were all perfect & the same.